my girl club, remodeling & a little thing called worry

I opened up my blog page, fully intending to apologize for not writing in such a very long time...and then I realized my last post was only 16 days ago...not even a month! I almost attempted to pat myself on the back, but then thought better of it and started typing....

Its 9pm and my tired body cannot get my racing mind to agree to go to sleep. This is often my nighttime plight. The fan is on low enough to keep the room from being cold and high enough to create some wonderfully invited white noise. My lamp is on....its a soft, muted illumination through the rice paper (thank you IKEA). When I fall asleep, it usually stays on. [This is on my husband's top 10 list of things I do that drive him crazy.] Little Scout is asleep in her carrier a foot or so from the bed. I tried to let her sleep with us last night, but she kept waking up and wanting to play...and play for a 10 week old puppy is biting..so its the carrier for her tonight. Jetti is spooning me and Miss Independant (Piper) is curled up at the far corner at the bottom of the bed snoring and enjoying her own space.

The girl club has begun.

Shawn left for tour Sunday at around 10am and Sawyer went with him. So any of you who make it out to this fall's shows, look for Sawyer and give him a few good rubs for me. So yeah, the boys headed off on a little road trip that will land them in nashville eventually after a show stop in Chicago on Friday. And then a few days later, the tour gets off the ground and running.

I already miss him...Shawn, that is. *grin* For the next two months, its just us girls in the house...TWO MONTHS. ugh. I love my hubby and I am proud of him and believe in the ministry God has for his life and his music, I just wish it didn't involve all the traveling.... couldn't you all just start flying out to our place for concerts? I mean, I'd make you dinner and everything...C'mon...plane tickets aren't that expensive...ha.

So what does a woman do when her husband is away for months at a time? I'll tell you what she does. She remodels.

Yep, she remodels. Now I have posted a time or two about my little remodeling projects, but for the next few months the list of jobs is not quite so little...nor am I going to be working alone. The first project on the list is privacy fencing...my Dad is coming out for a week and we are fencing this crazy, mutli level yard so that the pups can be outside for the rest of the remodeling. The rest of it including: new interior and exterior doors, hardwood flooring, appliances, all new trim inside, new paint, new vanities, new shower, new bath tub, new heater, some new light fixtures.... then in the spring, the yard and siding.

I am tired just thinking about it.

Luckily, my amazingly talented and hard working cousin, AJ, is flying out from Ohio to do the bulk of the work.

When we bought this house a year ago we knew 'everything' needed to be redone, I am just sure we considered how much 'everything' can be.

I love our little house....its old and has character and is in a good location with a bigger-than-usual-Seattle yard, but I am really ready for all these big and little projects to be finished.

My deadline: mid-November. I will post pictures.

So other than everyday life things like puppies and houses and the like, what have I been thinking about?

Well at church Pastor was finishing a series on Luke and talking about prophesy and end times. It was a good sermon, but wouldn't you just know that really only one little comment stuck to me? Just one little side note he made....isn't that just the way it goes? Some faithful servant prepares an hour long sermon for his church and one little aside is what sticks,.. Or maybe that's just me...I am a detail person....well, not really...hmmm...maybe I am a big picture person who likes details....

ok, kate( yes, i am speaking to myself in third person) who cares. get on with the point.

anyway...Pastor read a verse with the word 'worry' in it and just before moving on, he went back and said, "did you guys know that the word 'worry' in the greek really means to be divided? its like trusting God and then preparing to take care of yourself. Its like living for God and then defending yourself."

he made that comment and then moved on and tied up the loose ends of his message on prophesy, but the conviction stung too hard for me to stay with him.

I am a worrier. I am divided. I didn't know how much I needed that Word for the week that was coming, but did I ever need it. If there was any week so far in my life that has brought cause for worry, this one is it. It has seemed like a surprise was lurking around every corner....and just when I thought I had everything in order--- just when I thought I had a good plan for how my life would unfold...SURPRISE! Its not going to be like I planned...

So tonight, as I hope to soon be drifting off to sleep, I will share my simple prayer with you.

God, please help me to stave out the 'I trust me' so that I can know what it really means to trust You! help me to remember that you clothe the lillies and none of them have to worry about what to wear...and You feed the animals... and You cause the sun to come up in the morning and to go down at night...Help me to remember that I am Yours.